Thursday, October 28, 2010

Spontaneity of a college student.

On Tuesday night I randomly recieved a text from my awesome friend Geoff Canaan. He was randomly coming up to Ogden to play at Frogurt (Geoff is a great singer/guitar player) and wanted me to come. I love listening to Geoff play, and I love Frogurt, but unfortunately I was working concessions for Weber State's current play, Under Construction. So instead, I invited Geoff to come visit me at my apartment after his little performance.

At about ten that night, he called and said he was going to come visit with a friend. Geoff came by and introduced me to Hayden Ballou, who apparently goes to WSU. I soon found out that Hayden's brother is the lead guitarist/singer in a band I saw at The Basement last week called Mermaid Baby. (Britt and I thought their music was great last Saturday!) It was a weird coincidence... small world, right?!

Well anyway, I introduced Brittany to Geoff, and then we both got to know Hayden pretty quickly- he was super outgoing and nice. Geoff and Hayden are so. funny. We had a ton of fun hanging out... doing practically nothing. Britt and I made the boys hot chocolate. We sat in the kitchen and talked (While Hayden did our dishes?! Yeah, I didn't approve of that part. But he was adamant.) and we laughed and joked around. Hayden and Geoff decided to doorbell ditch the girls across the hall... who probably already think Britt and I are completely weirdos (and who can argue? We kinda are. haha) and then they continued to make us laugh by having a headstand competition in our living room! At midnight. In our tiny apartment. Spontaneous? I think so. I suggested a movie, or a game, or even super nintendo... but they were just chill.

(Okay. Chill is the wrong word. I wouldn't define "chill" as doing headstands in our apartment.)

Later that night (a.k.a. the early hours of the morning) Geoff invited his friend Kenzie Barneck over. We didn't know Kenzie either, but she was really nice! Although at first I think she was surprised at our random energy... but then she joined in. (Who can blame her? I was surprised at the random energy. Those two boys are a riot.) Then, Geoff discovered my crayons sitting on the coffee table. He asked for some paper and before you know it we're all coloring pictures. Look at our creations:

Hayden's superhero drawing. Talk about great artist.

Kenzie's picture

Kenzie and I asked Geoff what we should draw. He said "A grapefruit... that isn't really a grapefruit. He just found out he's actually a pear.) This is Kenzie's take on that idea.

Geoff colored me a picture. Cute, huh? ;)

I drew a picture of Brittany. She's singing. And she has green eyebrows.

All in all... it was a spontaneously awesome night. hahaha... not at all what I had in mind for my Tuesday night plans, but it was great fun! I made some new friends too, which is always fantastic. Behold, the beginning of many spontaneous and random college adventures. Gotta love it. ;) I think being a college student is proving to be PRETTY darn fun. But mostly when you least expect it. Thanks Geoff, Hayden, Kenzie and Britt for the memories!

I told you 'snow'

As predicted- the first snow came. Brittany and I were sitting in our cozy living room on Tuesday evening. When we glanced out the window, small white flakes were drifting to the ground. We pulled on our sweaters and ran outside to dance in it!

I wasn't kidding when I said I would be out there in the first snow!
See here.
Told ya so.

And afterward we had some hot chocolate,
Exactly as planned.
(complete with hazelnut creamer. perfection.)

While we watched the Snow drifting by through the window
We sipped out hot chocolate
And we watched the film Emma
A movie based off the novel by Jane Austen.

Britt and I do a lot of silly things, like dancing in the first snow.
I love our silly little plans.
The small things,
That's what makes our lives so... sweet. :)

Monday, October 25, 2010

A Doodle Love Story

This always makes me smile. Enjoy. :)

This video was created by my dearest friend Emilie Woodhead.
Boy, am I surrounded by the most talented people, or what?
I say yes.

I just love this video.
Because I love love.
And doodling.
Doodling reminds me of third grade.
When life was at it's simplest.
(Although we wouldn't have thought so, at the time.)
Third grade I had my first crush.
We ate snow cones together.
(At our brothers' baseball games)
One time, he paid for my snow cone, too.
The whole 75¢
Now that's love.
(For the simple mind of a third-grader.)
I don't think a snow cone ever tasted so sweet.
Ah, yes. Snow cones.
And doodling.
And third grade crushes.
And the simple life.
I love all of it.

...But mostly I just love love. :)

Sunday, October 24, 2010

The First Snow

Snow is close around the corner, or so the weather forecast states.
(How dependable that source is, we are never sure.)
Although I should say it's about time. I've been surprised with Mother Nature's abnormally sunny weather for this late in October.
I love the snow. It covers the world in a shimmering blanket of white beauty. It hides the once-orange leaves from autumn, the ones that are slowly fading to a crisp brown.
Snow means Thanksgiving and Christmas and a new year; a fresh start. Snow means more hot cocoa, ice skating, gloves and coats, and frosty breath in the morning air.
School gets let out, the city bustles with holiday shopping and the countryside bundles up with trees set in windows and glowing fireplaces emanating through the frosted panes. Pretty lights are strung, evergreen trees outside are laced with white, and the cold pinches your ears and nose.
In one of my favorite TV shows, Gilmore Girls, Lorelai Gilmore always goes for a walk during the first snow. She can smell it coming. She grabs her coat and gloves and steps outside to experience the magic of the first snow of the year.

I'm excited for the first snow. I have my gloves and coat ready. Britt and I are going to go dance in the first snow when it comes. (Followed by hot cocoa and a Jane Austen movie)
I guess I'm just excited for winter. Usually by the time the New Year has come and gone I'm ready for spring and sunshine again.
 (Because how cute would Valentine's Day be if the earth was covered in flowers?)
 But during the holidays, I love the snow. I don't know what life would be without it.
And anyway, I'm excited to wear my winter clothes. I'm ready to pull my sweaters, scarves, gloves and boots out of my closet. It's like wearing new outfits all over again. :)
So bring on the first snow. And come outside and dance with us. It'll be fabulous and grand and all things lovely.
(And cold!)


Here's a small taste of what I've been up to the past weekend.

Under Construction

WSU Theatre Department's production of Under Construction just opened on Friday. I went and saw the opening night show, and attended the opening reception afterward. (Sorbet and soda! mmm.) It was a fabulous show, very unique- and told a lot about America and it's growing culture and society. I thought the set was fantastic and the cast was very talented. I loved it.


I went to Odyssey Dance Theatre's Thriller production on Saturday with my mom, sister, and my awesome friend Austin Arntsen. We had free tickets to the matinee showing. It was a fun show, and got me even more in the Halloween spirit. :) Even if I don't get to dance often anymore, I will always have a huge appreciation for it. Although when I see shows like Thriller, it makes me wish I was dancing again.

Allred at The Basement

Brittany and I went to see an Allred concert at The Basement in Ogden. We stood for five hours straight and listened a variety of music. Some of my favorite artists were Michael Harvey, Mermaid Baby, and Tessa. The end of the concert was the best. John Lefler from Dashboard Confessional performed before Allred. He had great stage presence and was fun to watch. He told me I was "Sweet" from the stage. I was right up in the front, so he kept talking to us. I felt pretty cool. Then Allred closed the show, and of course they did an awesome job. After the concert we talked to John and John- I felt pretty cool. John Lefler gave me a hug, and John Allred was super nice ;) it was a fun concert. We met some cool people, and listened to some good music.

Pretty good weekend, I'd say...
Let's brace ourselves for another week of classes and homework.
But next weekend is Halloween! There's something to look forward to.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Carving Pumpkins :)

It feels way too early in the year
To be carving pumpkins into spooky jack-o-lanterns.
I can't believe we're already more than halfway through October.
Brittany and I went to carve pumpkins with the singles ward.
I'm no visual artist or anything, but we definitely had some fun.
Our friends Matt Baxter and Spencer Walker came along too.

Here are the outcomes of mine and Brittany's creations...

Brittany's happy, smiling pumpkin.
Pretty darn cute.

And here's my pumpkin.
I say he ate too much candy corn.
Sick Pumpkin ;)

It was a fun time. (Minus the not-so-tasty pumpkin cookies)
Jack-O-Lanterns and Pumpkins, 
Scary movies...
I just need to figure out what I'm going to dress up as this year!
Gotta love Halloween.
It's coming up soon... can't wait!

Monday, October 18, 2010

Specifically for me.

I went to a lovely fireside yesterday.
Elder Bednar came to speak to the Young Adults in Ogden.
I learned many things,
And felt more at peace than I have in a long while.
It was exactly what I've been needing to hear.
I love how the gospel can do that.
Always speaking directly to each of us...
It offers what is always best.
Embrace it fully, and love it...
Because it can take you to great places
And help you make amazing contributions to this world.
I just want to become a better person,
And ultimately live life to the fullest.
I want to learn and grow
And become the best version of me I can be.

Opportunities like the fireside last night,
Give me the strength, courage, and love to do my best in this life.

During the talk, he gave some incredible advice.
Here are a few of the things I learned.

1. You can't ever have a perfect balance of everything in your life. At each given moment in life, you should be focusing on one thing. During that moment, because you are focusing on one thing, the other things in your life are not being focused on as directly... therefore, you don't ever have everything perfectly balanced. When you are at school, you should be focusing on learning and educating yourself. At that time, family, church, and other obligations are set aside momentarily. Another time you may be with your family... during that specific time you should focus on your family and school, friends, and other obligations are set aside momentarily. We must focus on putting our meticulous efforts into one specific thing at a time.

Compare this thought to a Chinese Acrobat... balancing plates on sticks. An acrobat may have several plates spinning on various sticks at one time. However there is never a moment when all of the plates are spinning at the exact same RPM... But the acrobat, if he's doing his job right, never lets the plates come crashing down. He simultaneously spins each one successfully, even at their different rates.

In our lives, it is not about balancing each of the plates equally... it's not about getting them to spin at the exact same RPM. It's about learning how many plates we can balance at once, before they come crashing down. Making priorities, knowing our limitations and our strengths, and only spinning as many plates as we can handle.

2. Life is like a game of Chess. However, we are not a pawn on the game board, waiting to be moved by the Chess master. We are not predestined with a certain fate that is inevitable no matter how we conduct our lives. Instead, we are the person playing the game of Chess. We are sitting before the board, speculating and slowly learning how to maneuver our pieces across the board so we can win the game. We have a mentor there to guide us and give us help if we do not know how to play the game. Chess isn't the easiest game to learn. But we can all learn how to play, and we can all win the game. Slowly, move by move... we will make our way across the board and defeat the game. But our mentor will never make us move the pawn a specific way. In the end, it is WE who play the game... and it is WE who live with the consequences of how we move the pieces across the board.

In life, we have the gift of free-agency. We can make choices and form decisions of our own free will. We are not pre-destined with a certain fate. There are certain foreordinations and other blessings we are promised if we live the right way... but it is up to us to decide the rewards or the consequences we recieve in this life. If are always striving to be our best selves, then a way will be prepared for us to have true joy and happiness. Everything will work out in the end if we listen to our Heavenly Father and always continue to improve and be our best selves. Line upon line, precept upon precept we can continue and grow in this life and reach our goal at the end. If we listen to the mentor, he can teach us how to win life's game of Chess.

3.  “God... has a pencil with an eraser on it and he has promised us that he will use it if we will repent and change our ways.” (I didn't get that quote from the fireside, but it fit right in.) We have the wonderful and necessary gift of trying again. Everybody makes mistakes, and everyone can try again. No failure ever need be final. We have the atonement so that when we make mistakes we can try again. We also have the Grace of God with us. We are never alone. If we ever need help with a trial in our lives, we can pray and recieve help and have our burdens lifted. Our burdens will not go away... for we encountered these burdens for a specific reason to learn and grow... however, we will have the help and grace of God to get us through the trial. We don't have to do it alone. Sometimes we can't do it alone. "If he will lead you to it, he will lead you through it." Right? Of course. Because he loves us and will help us overcome anything that is thrown at us in this life.


I am so grateful to learn new things. I have been told these concepts time and time again throughout the course of my life... but sometimes we need to hear them again to fully realize how directly they apply to each of our lives. Other times we need to hear them a certain way to better understand them. Sometimes certain things will become apparent to us on a personal level where before they were merely simple life lessons.

At the fireside many things became apparent to me... and I feel at peace to have heard these things from Elder Bednar last night. I'm always looking to become better, to grow, and to learn. Last night helped me to achieve this goal, to become my best self and ultimately live life to the fullest.

I am so grateful for the wonderful opportunity I had to listen to Elder Bednar last night, and I am grateful that he took the time to come and speak to us. He was inspired to teach us these things and share with us many wise words... and as I listened I knew that it was important... and that every word was specifically meant for me.

New Music

So this Allred that I've been talking about?
Here's a taste of his music.
This is what I've been listening to for a while.
Only one of his many songs.
And Britt and I are attending two of his concerts this week.
Have a listen. Enjoy.

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Chilly Autumn Air.

There are many things I love about Autumn.

Leaves on the trees evolve into brilliant colors.
Homemade pies baking in the oven.
Turning on the heater to warm your home.
Scarves, sweaters and gloves.
Borrowing a jacket from a special someone
Breathing in the frosty morning air.
Carved pumpkins sitting on doorsteps
Wrapping fingers around a heated cup of cocoa
Crunchy leaves scattered along the sidewalk
The sun peeking through overcast skies
Happy Holidays just around the corner...

I woke up this morning
Decided to go without a jacket
During my daily walk to the shuttle,
Letting the crisp morning air brush over my arms
Breathing in the smell of autumn
And thinking about my wonderful life, in it's entirety.
...that's a lot to think about. ;)

I admired the fall colors, the crisp air
And the heart-warming essence autumn brings
While I walked through campus
And went about my day.
What a lovely sight.

And today I returned to my hometown for Fall break.
Happy to be here. :)
Isn't life grand?

Reaffirmation #2

Told ya I remade a chair.
This thing used to be old and had brown ugly metal,
With brown carpet cushions and leather.

Britt and I took it apart, painted it white
and reupholstered it with red fabric.
Lovely, isn't it?
I feel very accomplished.

I'm also starting to think
This is just the beginning
Of MANY odd tasks I'm going to have to do
While I'm in theatre at WSU
I get to expand on my talents and skills.
Yipee. ;)

Thanks to Britt for the help
Because this is another reaffirmation
That I'm not skilled at this kinda thing
(similar to costume sketches)
But between Brittany and I
I don't think the chair looks that bad!
Maybe I can get the hang of this stuff.
And despite the time it took,
We had fun getting the project done.

Can't wait to see the show and admire my chair from the audience ;)

Wednesday, October 13, 2010


For Theatre 1013 I was assigned a costume design project.
Well guess who decided not to do her homework last weekend?
That's right.

So I just barely got finished.

What's more... I am no visual artist.
And this project definitely reminded me of that.
But it was entertaining to try. :)

I had to research and draw sketches
For A Doll's House by Henrik Ibsen.
(Go read... it's a classic.)

The play is set in 1879
So my costumes were Victorian era.
Doing the research made me wish
I could wear the gorgeous dresses

So quaint and pretty.
Here's some of my research...

...And my sore attempt
At creating some costume sketches.


This is a reaffirmation
That maybe I should just stick to performing arts.
But it was lots of fun.
And now it's definitely bedtime.
Yay for procrastination resulting in a major lack of sleep.
Tomorrow: the ever-intriguing story about how I re-upholstered and completely re-consrtucted a chair. This college theatre stuff has definitely got me trying a hand at some new things! ;)

Monday, October 11, 2010

First Timers and Old Friends.

Here's the scoop on the past weekend.

It was very eventful, and very fun. Brittany and I left Ogden in the early afternoon on Friday. I arrived at home and spent some relaxing time with my family, and then Brittany and I were headed up to Provo for a concert. My friend Curtis Hickman and I were talking music over facebook a while ago, and he recommended I listen to this artist, Allred. I looked him up on youtube and I've been a fan ever since. Lucky for me, he was playing at The Velour in Provo on Friday, and so I dragged Brittany with me and we had a girls' night out on the town.

We first went to the acoustic show at seven, which was just John Allred and his guitar. I love acoustic music, and his concert was awesome. While we were there we met up with Curtis Hickman and Darren Welcker. It was Darren's first concert, and Curtis has been a fan for a while (since he was the one who introduced me to the music) After the acoustic show, Brittany and I stayed for the full band concert. They had a few special guests to open for Allred and they were all talented. And of course Allred was amazing. I've converted Brittany to their music, and we both got free CD's and we've been listening to Allred's music ever since. Some people are just SO talented. I absolutely loved the concert.

After arriving home late on Friday night, I discovered that my friend Ryan Marble was playing Rugby the next day. He plays for Weber State University, and it was the last home game of the season. I know how it feels to be a part of something and you want people to come support you, and I had never been to a Rugby game! I had no Saturday plans and it sounded like fun. I ended up driving back into Ogden with my mom on Saturday to watch the Rugby game. On our way there we picked up Einstein's - my favorite. I had a delicious bagel (with cream cheese of course) and a cup of hot chocolate. (I just love chilly autumn days when you have a cup of cocoa in your hand.)

The game was so intense, and very brutal! I haven't the slightest idea about the rules to the game, but it was so entertaining to watch! They played Boise State and completely dominated. I enjoyed watching it more than football, and after a while I got the hang of what was happening in the game (with my mom's help, she catches onto sports more quickly than I do). Not to mention... Weber State won the game! Go Wildcats ;)

Mom and I made the hour-drive back home (third time out of four for me in a weekend) and then I relaxed a little at home, quickly realizing that I had no Saturday night plans. I hopped on facebook to find that my friend Ryan Clawson was playing at Highpoint Coffee. He plays the guitar and sings. I tried to find friends who would come and support Ryan with me-- but everyone else already had plans.

I was desperate to avoid a lonely Saturday night at home, so I went to Highpoint Coffee by myself! Lonely still-- but not at home ;) And yeah... usually I'm not the girl to waltz into a coffee shop by myself just to chill, but it was fun! I walked in and ordered a hot chocolate with hazelnut (my favorite) and sat down to listen to some of the local artists play their music. There were some really talented individuals (as well as some very eccentric individuals). Ryan Clawson arrived after a while with our friend Chris Bernier. I didn't completely mind being alone, but it was good to see that Chris came. Chris and I watched Ryan play and recorded his performance. Ryan did a great job! He played some of his original pieces, and I was really impressed. :) After Ryan played we waited around for a while because Ryan's friend Travis Thorup was scheduled to play too. Travis came and he was just as awesome as Ryan! He played some original pieces, and his music was very enjoyable.

After we listend to Travis play I left Highpoint Coffee to meet up with my friend Preston Weber for some ice cream! We met at Coldstone Creamery. I LOVE ice cream. Music is the comforter to my soul... Ice cream is the comforter to my tummy. ;) I ordered a cotton-candy ice cream with rainbow sprinkles. (I know, doesn't that just make you smile? Bright blue ice cream with rainbow sprinkles. I know it made me happy inside!) Peston and I enjoyed our ice cream and simply talked. It was fantastic to be able to catch up with Preston and hear how he's doing. It was really awesome to be able to sit down and talk with a friend. Just what I needed. Thanks Preston!

After my little ice cream outing I went home and talked to my mom for a while. It was really amazing to be able to talk to her and spend some time at home. I went to bed and awoke to the delicious smells of Daddy cooking breakfast! I thoroughly enjoyed homemade french toast and thick yummy bacon and strawberry-orange julius. It was divine. (And it definitely beats my cold cereal college breakfast every morning!) After breakfast my dad taught my siblings and I how to make these awesome bracelets. My dad learned how to make cord bracelets from a fellow firefighter on his crew. The bracelets were used in the military and are made out of this thick cord. I made a purple and black bracelet, and I felt pretty darn crafty! (Not to mention I've got school spirit since my bracelet's WSU colors!)

Then at one o' clock I had a farewell to attend. My amazing friend Jordan Ladesma has been called to serve in Tonga! (How awesome... right?!) When I walked into the chapel I saw the beloved faces of some of my most amazing friends sitting in the congregation. Emilie Woodhead, Jessica Allen, Joey Gibbons, Geoff Canaan, Steve Canaan, Taylor Shaddick, Brian Lee, Michelle Lee, Erin Davenport, Chase Quinn, Emily Wells, Conner Edmiston, and Chase Reaveley were all there at the farewell. I call them my "Alta/DHT/Broadway Kidz/Draper friends". I made friends with this incredible group of people when I was in High School Musical: The Musical at Draper Historic Theatre the summer before my sophomore year of high school. Usually when you're in a show you become family. When that show ends everyone tells eachother they'll keep in touch. Usually that never happens. NOT true with my Alta/DHT/Broadway Kidz/Draper friends! We've stayed pretty close ever since our HSM days, even though we don't get to see each other a ton. I love them all so much and it was great to see them after such a long and tiring week.

Jordan did an outstanding job on his talk! He didn't sound at all like a Pre-missionary. You can tell that he's excited to serve and that he will be awesome in the mission field. I cannot wait to hear from him while he's in Tonga. (Yay... another missionary I can write to!) Jordan, Geoff, and Geoff's brother J.R. also performed a wonderful musical number during sacrament meeting. It was truly beautiful, and I know they touched the hearts of the congregation. I definitely have too many friends who are too musically talented ;) they were awesome.

After the meeting we migrated to Jordan's house for a pig roast and various other delicious dishes ;) I had the most wonderful time catching up with my friends... talking, laughing, and sharing life's stories with one another. I miss them so much and wish we could see each other more often. I'm just grateful that we've stayed friends over the past few years.

I stayed at Jordan's for quite some time, and then I came back home for the rest of my Sunday afternoon/evening. I relaxed some more, ate dinner with the family, and then got packed up to return back to Ogden. I didn't really want to go home and come to school this week... but it's only a three day week for me so I can't complain too much! (Thank goodness for fall break!) I picked Brittany up on the way and we had a great time chatting on the drive home (as we always do). It was a great weekend with a couple of firsts: first concert, first music night at the coffee shop, first rugby game... and of course there were many great reunions with old friends too. :) And so now we endure the three-day week of school... with fall break just around the corner. :) You gotta love weekends, no matter how short they seem.

Sunday, October 10, 2010


"What is family? They are the people who claimed you. In good, bad, in parts or in whole, they were the ones who showed up and stayed there, regardless. It isn't just about blood relations, or shared chromosomes, but something wider, bigger. We have many families over time. Our family of origin, the family we create, as well as the groups we move through while all of this is happening: friends, lovers, sometimes even strangers. None of them are perfect, and we can't expect them to be. You can't make any one person your world. The trick is to take what each can give you and build a world from it."
-Sarah Dessen

I love and miss my family. The weekend is always too short. I love coming home and having amazing late-night talks with my mom, sleeping in my comfy bed, waking up to Daddy cooking breakfast, and laughing with Ben and Brooklyn. I'm so glad I only live an hour away. :) Luckily I have also been blessed with an amazing friend named Brittany Hathaway who is just as close as family, especially when we're here in Ogden... our home away from home.

I suppose I'm just feeling extra-thankful today for the loving people who I hold dear to my heart. Blood-related family and theoretical-families alike.

I'm so extremely grateful for all of the incredible people in my life who I can treat as family. Most of all, I'm grateful for my real family. I love them with all my heart. And I'm so glad that they are always there for me. No matter what else may change in my life... they are the constant, the one thing that will never change. I know I can always turn back to them and feel their unconditional love and support.

And to know that one truth is all I need to be able to get through anything in life.

To everyone who I call family--- thank you.
And an even greater thanks to my real family. Sending my love.

Monday, October 4, 2010

Dear Mr. Right,

I've been thinking of you and me and our future together. So while I'm thinking of you, whoever you are; I want you to know that I might be asking for a lot. But I know that you'll be my everything when I fall in love with you, because you'll be the right man for my heart.

I want you to know that I will have probably practiced writing my name followed by your surname over a thousand times when I've fallen in love with you. I'll probably have handfuls of pictures of you. I'll completely adore you and show you off to all of my friends. I want you to become my best friend. I want you to need me like I need you. I want us to respect each other. I want you to tell me and show me that you love me.

I want a well-thought out proposal. This is forever that we're planning for, so you can put a little effort into asking me. ;) I don't care about money or being in front of many people... but I want that moment to be special. I want the most beautiful wedding... only in the temple. Please take me there someday. I want a lovely reception with all the corny traditions. Like a bouquet toss. And "something borrowed, something blue, something old, something new". And like cutting the cake. And choosing a flower girl. And a daddy-daughter dance. You'll have to dance with me too, so start practicing. I want pictures, lots of pictures. And I want our wedding day to be the happiest and most wonderful day I've ever lived.

I want to visit the temple with you many times after our wedding. I want the priesthood to be a constant in my life. In fact, I would hope you're a returned missionary. Because I adore those who are so selfless that they would serve a mission. I want you to honor your priesthood and callings in life, so that I can have the priesthood in my home. I want us to have a house, and a home. I want to kneel at our bed in prayer with you by my side. I want babies. I want you to bless them in church. I want to make their blessing gowns from my wedding dress and I want to see you holding our babies every day. I want to bring our little children to church and feed them cheerios to keep them quiet. I want to take our kids to walk the gardens of the temple when they're little. I want them to know that I know the church is true.

I want to see you roll down grassy hills with our children in the summer, or jump on the trampoline with them, or go sledding with them in the wintertime. I want you to give our children silly nicknames. I want our family to go traveling together. I want a journal for our family. I want to take bubble bath pictures of our babies, and put them in adorable scrapbooks. I want us all to go on bike rides together. I want our family to sing around campfires, laugh until our tummies hurt, and read stories before bedtime. I want our children to look up to us, exactly how I look up to my parents. I want to watch them grow up and experience the world for themselves. I want our family to learn together. I want to be with my family for eternity.

I want you to be my best friend. I want to fall in love with you every day. I want every kiss to be like the first and last kiss. I want us to write handwritten letters to each other, signed with 'love' or 'yours truly' at the bottom. I want you to kiss me on the forehead and I want you to hold me in your arms. I want to wear your button up shirts and smell your cologne. I want us to tell each other everything. I want us to be able to talk for hours and hours, and still be comfortable whenever silence settles in. I want to treasure those golden silent moments with you. I want you to support me in all that I do. I want you to love me with my imperfections and quirks. Please don't try to change me. I will love you even with your faults, I promise. I want you to braid my hair. I want you to love me even when I'm not dolled up. I want to bring you lunch while you're at work. I want to sit on the front porch with you and watch the sun set. I want to sleep under the stars, swim naked in lakes, and dance in the rain. I want to make you soup when you're sick. I want us to grow a garden. I want to smile every day. I want you to teach me new things. I want to grow old with you. I want you to have faith in me. I want happily ever after... forever.

I know you're out there somewhere. Whether I've met you already or not, I can't wait to really meet you... to happen upon that moment in my life when I'll know you are the one I've been waiting for. I want to truly be deserving of you. I want to be the best wife and mother I can be. I feel so small to be thinking about getting married, but I know the day is coming closer and closer every morning when I wake up. So I'm going to work harder and harder so that I'm more satisfied with my life every night when I fall asleep. I'm working hard, learning, and loving life so that when I find you I will be ready. Please look for me; I'll be very patient... there's no rush. ;) but still, I will dream for the day when I have you. My fairytale, my happily ever after, my one and only... and I want you to know that I love you, and I'll love you forever.

Yours truly,

Sunday, October 3, 2010

He Speaks to Us Still.

I love conference weekend. Not only because it feels glorious to stay in my pajamas alllll dayyyy looong. But also because of the kind and loving words we hear from Heavenly Father by the means of our church leaders. How can you not help but smile at these adorable, cute, little old men? Their wrinkles make them wise, for they have experienced a life to help guide us. They have His aid, and He speaks to us still. :)

One of my favorite quotes from our dear President Monson,

"Our task is to be our best selves. One of God's greatest gifts to us is the joy of trying again, for no failure ever need be final."

The quote isn't from this weekend, but I know there were many things said this time that are just as amazing and wonderful. And with that said, good night world. Let the words that have been spoken to us this weekend remain dear to our hearts. :)

P.S. and By The Way...On Saturday night during the priesthood session I went to "Ladies Night" at Deseret Book. It was superb. Almost as superb as the missionary action figures I purchased while I was there. The miniature Elders are sitting on my desk next to my alarm clock. Oh how I adore missionaries.

I know you're jealous. ;)