Monday, February 28, 2011

Hurry, please.

...Is anyone else itching for springtime?

Saturday, February 26, 2011

I am not a conformist.

The blogging world is rapidly growing.

With this sudden increase of bloggers in the cyberspace world some people claim that "blogging is overrated," or that people blog just to "be like everyone else."

So I would like to make one thing clear - I did not begin my blog to follow any trend. Blogging was not the newest fad when I started my page. And I will not be categorized as a person who started blogging because "everybody else is."

My blog was inspired by one person and a small handful of other things not related to any new fashion. Two years ago I started blogging because of my mom's blog. My mom started a page of her own and I always enjoyed reading it.

I also started blogging simply because I wanted a tiny piece of the universe to call my own. I thought of my blog as a journal of sorts... and since I was horrible at handwriting in a journal, I thought starting a blog would be a sufficient substitution. And anyway, a blog was much more adorable than a black hardbound notebook-journal filled with endless pages of my untidy script.

So I began blogging because my mother inspired me, because I wanted to write down memories, and because I wanted to be original and creative. I started my page back when the only bloggers were the Soccer-Moms searching for an escape from their baby strollers, rebellious teens, and busy kitchens (Joke). I know there were many various bloggers. Cyberspace is a big place. But it wasn't the craze that it is now. :)

I won't go on and on... I just wanted this ever-growing circle of bloggers (and the accusing anti-bloggers) to know that I am not the follower of the latest trend; nor am I the trend-setter.

So yes, blogging is becoming progressively more popular. This is not a bad thing. I love it infact. I love viewing my friends' blogs. They interest me. I enjoy having something entertaining to read and I like hearing how people's lives are going. When I find another friend who has started a blog I add them to my reading list and welcome them to the blogging world with open arms :)

But I am not one of the herd. :)
I am just a girl who wants to be original.
Just a girl who really likes to write.
Ya know, self expression...or something like that.

Wednesday, February 23, 2011


I want to give a shout-out to my friend today. Matt Baxter and I have known each other since the seventh grade and today he is going to the MTC and then to the Ukraine where he will serve a mission for two years! I didn't make it to his farewell because my family was in Southern Utah for the holiday weekend, but I got to see him on Monday before he was headed out! I'm so proud of him and the example he is to me. He is such a great friend, and I know he will be an awesome missionary!

Best of luck to you Elder Baxter! Thanks for being such an awesome friend. We'll miss ya! See you in two years :)

Monday, February 21, 2011

Provo Gurls.

While I was in Saint George over the weekend
My cousins showed me this video.
I feel like since I'm at school in Ogden,
I can post this without shame ;)

It's a super cheesy video.
Maybe I was just tired,
But it made me laugh so hard!
Enjoy :)

Thursday, February 17, 2011


Maybe it's the recent gray weather... but I'm kind of in a cloudy mood. I want a burst of something original, fresh, or creative in my life. I want romance or excitement or adventure. I want to travel somewhere new or discover something old. I'm stuck in a rut... and I want to get out.

I feel like my life is on auto pilot or cruise control. All of my days recently go a little something like this:
  • Wake up... press snooze at least twice.
  • Throw together an outfit and get ready for the day.
  • Take the bitter cold walk to the shuttle.
  • Go to school.
  • Sit through classes.
  • Come home.
  • Have a nap (worst habit ever)
  • Do some homework.
  • Eat junk food.
  • Do more homework.
  • Waste time on facebook.
  • Blog about something cheesy.
  • Stay up too late (hence the naps)
  • Go to bed.

That's just it. My life feels repetitive. And after a while, that gets to be very mundane. I'm going through the motions, and that's it. I'm doing the same things day after day after day... I even do my hair the same way every day. And my makeup the same way every day. I just need to change it up a little.

Also, as beautiful as the snow is I'm ready for sunshine. I want to walk barefoot on the pavement and sit outside in the evenings and run through sprinklers and hear birds chirping when I wake up. I love the snow and chilly weather through the holidays... but after New Years I'm ready for warm weather again. I am definitely a sunshine-and-blue-skies kind of girl. I couldn't live in a place where it rained or snowed every day all year long.

Thanks to Utah's bipolar weather it was actually quite lovely outside for a few days. I knew it was too good to be true, and I was proven correct when a blizzard swept through last night. But for a while it was nice. On Tuesday my roommate and I went on a walk. I really needed that. It was something that made my day different from all the other days. I loved feeling the breeze on my face and being out in the fresh air. We walked six miles for exercise and it felt great. Plus I love that feeling of achey muscles the next day. It gives me a sense of accomplishment.

I also admit that I probably have post-show depression. That sounds pathetic so let me elaborate. Being in the show kept me busy busy busy all the time. I felt like I was always doing something. Now it's really weird to come home after school and have nothing on my agenda. Homework is not the nicest companion, and that's all I ever do after class. I suppose I'm just one of those people who likes keeping themselves busy. And the show was a fun way to keep me going.

Being finished with the show also made me realize that all of my friends here in Ogden are in the theatre department. That is definitely not a bad thing... I LOVE all of the friends I have made in the department at Weber State. I just need to branch out. I need to have friends inside AND outside of theatre. I'm a firm believer that the more you experience outside of the theatre, the more you can bring into the theatre. :)

Anyway I could just keep complaining.
But here's to escaping that hum-drum attitude and enjoying life :)

Much love!

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

The Power of Nail Polish (among other things)

The power of nail polish
And it's effect on the female universe:
(Male reader discretion advised)

I just got finished putting a new coat of paint on my nails.
Is it just me who feels great after painting my nails or toenails?
Not only is it fun to tap your fingers on a countertop
Or type on a keyboard,
But when I have my nails freshly painted
I feel pretty. I feel extra-feminine.
I feel like I can take on the universe.

Maybe it sounds silly that a bit of paint could do that.
But it's just a little something that makes me feel more confident.

There are certain things, like nail polish,
That make us girls feel unconquerable.
(Materialistic though they may be)

High Heels.
I love walking in high heels.
Hearing the 'click click' on the pavement
And the way they make your legs look so long.
I love tucking my legs under my chair and crossing my ankles.
I feel like I own the street, an extra bounce in my step,
When I'm walking in a pair of cute heels.

Doesn't matter what shade...
Gloss or matte. Wearing lipstick goes a long way.
Adds a little extra color to your face--
So smack your lips together and smile big :)

A New Hairstyle.
I love going to the salon and getting my hair done.
I can never get it to look the way my stylist does though!
It feels great having fresh-cut ends and long silky hair.
We've all given a little 'toss-toss' before. ;)

(And, of course)
The accessories.
Whenever my dad takes me shopping
He's always about the accessories to match.
A watch, scarf, hat, belt, purse, jewlery, lotion, perfume,
The finishing touch that can transform any outfit.

Now don't get me wrong...
Every girl should feel beautiful without painted nails or makeup.
And it's a wonderful feeling to be au naturel now and then.
The best beauty is natural beauty. And I love feeling naturally beautiful.

But there are times when it feels great
To be dressed up in the perfect ensemble,
Have a night out on the town
And notice when you get a compliment
...or even a double take, if you're lucky.
Like they say... if you've got it, flaunt it! ;)

Girly? High-maintenence? Silly? Maybe so.
And maybe not every girl feels the same way.
But for me, it gives the confidence an extra punch
I can hold my head high. I feel like I can conquer the world.
I feel like a woman. I feel (dare I say it?) Sexy.

It's sort of like... POW! And then you're Superwoman.
Stand back world; Bailee has arrived.

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

I just love love.

Happy Valentine's Day everyone...
Even though this is an hour late.
Valentine's Day is so wonderful!
I LOVE the holiday, even when I'm single.

You don't need a significant other,
I think Valentine's Day can be about expressing love
To anyone and everyone you care about.

Even though I love Valentine's Day regardless of relationship status,
I can't wait until one day
When I have someone special to share the holiday with.

I just love LOVE!
I am a hopeless romantic, a sap, a girly-girl, whathaveyou...
So naturally, I love Valentine's Day too :)

Today was wonderful. I woke up to a plate of pink snickerdoodles and a heart-warming card from my roommate and best friend, Brittany. The rest of the day was pretty normal, with the exception that I dressed up in pink on purpose. ;)

It was a beautiful day. The weather was wonderful, and I listened to my "La La Love" playlist on my ipod all day to put myself in the Valentine's mood. And Yes. I am that much of a nerd to have a Love Songs playlist on my ipod. 

All day I just realized how many beautiful people and things I was surrounded by. There are so many amazing people and things in my life which I love... and Valentine's day helps remind me of it all.

When I got home from classes my mom called me and told me Daddy had a Valentine for me. He bought me a gorgeous flower and a fancy peanut butter chocolate... Mom is saving it for me when I go home this weekend. I love my dad!

Tonight I got dressed up (red instead of pink) and I went on an awesome date with a good friend. I ended up having "a Valentine" after all! It was very fun. We went out to dinner and spent some good quality time talking. I really enjoyed the evening :) One of my favorite things is to sit down with a person and just talk. Getting to spend quality time with someone is something I highly value. I love having one-on-one conversations. It was a wonderful Valentine's Day Date :) And I was happy not to be alone all evening.

So it was a wonderful Valentine's Day. I love love, and I love quotes... so here are some love quotes to finish out the holiday. Infinite x's and o's... I hope everyone had a marvelous day!

"Love is the very essence of life. It is the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. Yet it is not found only at the end of the rainbow. Love is at the beginning also, and from it springs the beauty that arched across the sky on a stormy day. Love is the security for which children weep, the yearning of youth, the adhesive that binds marriage, and the lubricant that prevents devastating friction in the home; it is the peace of old age, the sunlight of hope shining through death. How rich are those who enjoy it in their associations with family, friends, and neighbors! Love, like faith, is a gift of God. It is also the most enduring and most powerful virtue."
-Gordon B. Hinckley

“And what is a kiss, when all is said and done?... A secret whispered to listening lips apart... a new song sung by two hearts... the ring of one horizon around two souls.”
-Edmond Rostand

“Love sings it's own music, writes its own rhyme, paints its own rainbow, counts its own time. Love smiles its own gladness, laughs its own fun dreams its own heaven, shines its own sun.”

“Let me die the moment my love dies. Let me not outlive my own capacity to love. Let me die still loving, and so, never die.”

“Real love stories never have endings.”
“I'm afraid once your heart's involved everything you try and say comes out in moron.”
-Gilmore Girls

“Love can't always be perfect. Love is just love.”
-The Wedding Planner

“We were given: two hands to hold. Two legs to walk. Two eyes to see. Two ears to listen. But why only one heart? Because the other was given to someone else. For us to find.”

“Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being “in love” which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches, we found that we were one tree and not two.”
-St. Augustine

“Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was choice, but falling in love with you I had no control over.”

“To love another person is to see the face of God.”
-Les Miserables

“Love. Those four letters have so many meanings, and no guarantees.”
-Sarah Dessen

“Love is never wanting to lose faith, never wanting to give up, and never truly moving on. Love is knowing and praying in the deepest part of what's left of your heart that they feel the same.”

“The greatest thing you'll ever learn, is just to love, and be loved in return.”
-Moulin Rouge

“In the art of love, instinct is enough.”

Love is fragile. And we're not always its best caretakers. We just muddle through and do the best we can. And hope this fragile thing survives against all odds.
-The Last Song
“I don't pretend to know what love is for everyone. But I can tell you what it is for me; love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person. Love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself, including things you might be ashamed of. Love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still getting weak in the knees when they walk into a room and smile at you.”

“You know you’re in love when you can no longer sleep; because reality is finally better than your dreams.”

“Before you, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark. But there were stars – points of light and reason... and then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy. There was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn't see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything.”
-New Moon

“Like the sun misses the flower in the depth of winter, instead of beauty to direct its light to, the heart hardens like the frozen world your absence has banished me to.”
-A Knight's Tale

“But still, sometimes when the wind is warm or the crickets sing... I dream of a love that even time will lie down and stand still for.”
-Practical Magic

“Nothing can keep us apart. Our love will last until the stars turn cold.”
-Singin' in the Rain

“I know what it is not to feel like you're in the room until he looks at you or touches your hand or even makes a joke at your expense, just to let everyone know... you're with him. You're his.”
-P.S. I Love You

Sunday, February 13, 2011

That one time when I became a secret agent.

Saturday February 12, 2011
1900 Hours

I was recruited by Agent Elise Vander Does
The agency was in dire need of an adventurous night.
It was time for a mission.
Because no college girl should sit alone at home
On a Saturday night.

Saturday February 12, 2011
2030 Hours

The newly recruited Agent Bailee Paxman
Embarks on her adventure.
Mission: GNO -College Edition.
Vander Does and Paxman venture to the Spyware store
(a.k.a. Walmart)
To pick up supplies.

Saturday February 12, 2011
Approx. 2130 Hours

Phase #1 of the mission: Civilian Encounters.
After much debate,
Vander Does and Paxman
Retrieve more ammo from civilian neighbors
After much struggle (a.k.a. laughter)
Sufficient ammo is collected.
Vander Does and Paxman begin Phase #2 of Mission GNO.

Saturday February 12, 2011
2300 Hours

Phase #2: The Evidence
Travel (incognito) to various locations.
Our cover was nearly blown
(Neighbors, passing cars, whathaveyou)
But with practiced stealth and brilliance
Phase #2 of the mission is successfully completed.

Sunday February 13, 2011
2400 Hours

Paxman and Vander Does scope out the perimeter
Prepare for the final phase of Mission: GNO
Phase #3: The climb.

Sunday February 13, 2011
100 Hours

With Phase #2 of Mission GNO complete
Agents Bailee Paxman and Elise Vander Does
Recruit fellow comrad,Cydney Viall.
Phase #3 of Mission: GNO is underway.

Sunday February 13,2011
200 Hours

With the use of
Strategy, phsyical strength, and teamwork
Viall, Paxman, and Vander Does
Arrive at the Summit.
Documentation of the mission is recorded
With the Descent completed
Viall, Paxman, and Vander Does
Successfully conquered Mission: GNO

Sunday February 13, 2011
300 Hours
Mission: GNO is finished.
All detailed information
Regarding the mission must remain confidential.

Over and Out.
Agent Bailee Paxman.

So, pretty much my Saturday night was looking to be pretty boring.
Then my good friend Elise texted me.
We decided to get together and do something crazy.
And indeed, we did.
Not much can be said about all of our EPIC adventures.
If I told you, it'd ruin all the fun.
But I can assure you, it was EPIC.
I haven't laughed so hard in quite some time!
We really did feel like secret spies.
Because Elise and I are such rebels. (ha.)
We are crazies though. And nerds.
We embrace it.
Thanks for your friendship and a fun night, Elise!
Hopefully we'll have more adventures to come in the future.

(Also a big thanks to Cydney!
It was fun getting to know you more,
and we couldn't have done it without you!)

Saturday, February 12, 2011

Far and Wide (They tell His story)

It's been a very relaxing, uneventful, lazy weekend.
So I thought maybe I should make good use of my spare time,
Since spare time seldom welcomes my life these days. :)

See... I haven't been a very good friend lately.
I know a handful of amazing, wonderful, awesome guys
Who are serving LDS missions
And I haven't written most of them.
Not once.

I've written the letters...
Sometimes I've rewritten letters.
The problem has been actually getting them sent out.
Writing a letter to a friend isn't much use if I don't send it.

Today, I collected all of their addresses,
Got my act together and sealed the envelopes!
Today they will be on their way
To various locations, far and wide.







I am so proud of my boys!

They are wonderful friends,
And great missionaries. What awesome examples!
If only I can just be better at writing them :)
Now I'm headed to the post office!

Friday, February 11, 2011

Secret #39

Call me crazy, but I just love wedding dreaming. And I just love love. Surprise! I bet you didn't see that one coming. But it's absolutely and completely true. It's true to the point where sometimes I think I'm pretty pathetic. I like to tell myself that I'm not the only hopeless romantic lady who is daydreaming her time away... but whether I'm reveling in solitude or whether there are hundreds of other wedding-wishers out there, I embrace my inner-girliness and continue in my pointless daydreaming.

I have this adorable wedding time capsule that I made when I was just a wee-beehive, only twelve years old. It's covered in pretty white wrapping paper and carefully stowed away underneath my bed at home. I don't remember the details of what the box contains, but I suppose that's the whole purpose of the wedding time capsule.

See, back when I made this capsule, I filled the box with my 12-year-old wedding plans and dreams. I also filled the box with pictures of what I wanted my dress, ring, and bouquet to look like.  What would my wedding colors be? What would I name my children? What would my husband look like? Would I be married in the spring, summer, winter, or fall? Where would I be married?

And the list goes on.

I sealed the box and slapped my name and the date on the front. I'm not allowed to open the box until I am engaged. And while I'm not planning on being engaged any time in the very near future, I'm itching to open my wedding time capsule just to read what my 12-year-old mind thought the ideal wedding would be. I start to laugh just thinking about it. It'll be so much fun to open it one day with my true love while we're planning for our real wedding.

But for the time being, it just sits under the bed, collecting dust. Hopefully it won't sit there forever. (Crossing fingers!) So anyway, ever since I was young I've been a little romantic. I mean, what's a girl to do? We love cute, sappy, beautiful, romantic things. I always loved attending wedding receptions and looking at photos

... and I still do. Look at how darling these are!

Sometimes I kinda think it would be fun to be a wedding planner. Not really, just kinda. But I can plan my own wedding in my mind. It'll be fun to open my time capsule one day and see my childhood wedding plans. It'll be even more fun to see what my real wedding will be like when that time comes along!

...But for now there's no harm in watching a few-too-many chick flicks, looking at pretty pictures, admiring other people's beautiful weddings, and secretly daydreaming about my own in the future. :)

Sunday, February 6, 2011

It was De-lovely!

Another show has come and gone and I absolutely loved being a part of Anything Goes at Weber State! It was my second time being in a production of Anything Goes, and I still never got sick of it's charm and humor. It's such a wonderful show to be in. I learned a lot of great things, had a TON of fun, and made some amazing friends. Here are some of the captured memories...

The four Angels... aren't we pretty?

Me and Linds... time for wig and pin curls!

Elise is such a sweet girl. :) Love her!
 I'm so glad we've become friends

Randall, Shelby and I :)
I admire them both. They are both absolutely wonderful people!

Angels had a photo op in the shower...
Scandalous? Just a little.

The beautiful Miss Maddie Tarbox...
One of my favorite ladies (and one of my future roomies!)

Chris, Sean, Myself, Nathan, and Josh.
Some of the studliest guys I know!

I don't know Bre very well yet, but what I do know is
She's one of the most talented and genuine girls I have ever met!

Blake and I posing for the camera during the middle of warm-ups!

My sweet family came to see the show
and we had some Village Inn after. Love them. :)

A stroll down the hallway on closing night with my favorite sailor!

I had such a wonderful time being an Angel in this fun production of Anything Goes. It was my first performing experience in college, and it is an experience I will never forget! I was surrounded by some amazingly talented people. We sure do have a superb theatre department here at WSU! (Not that I'm biased, or anything.) The cast was so much fun to be around, and the show was so energetic and lively. I looked forward to it every night, because the show always cheered me up! It's always bittersweet when a show is over. It's nice to have more time on my hands, but there are things about every show that I will always miss.

Some things I will miss about Anything Goes...

-Laughing with Randall every night, and having quiet conversations on stage about the craziest things
-Seeing Josh's awestruck face when the Angel's take off their robes in Act II.
-Winking at Evelyn Oakley (Trevor) during "Blow Gabriel Blow"
-White grape juice
-Listening to the crowd applause on closing night after the angels' first entrance with Reno
-Spanking the Purser's butt during "Bon Voyage" (Blake is such a handsome guy!)
-Listening to Maddie and Emilie singing Annie during intermission
-Buddy, Mickey Larson's adorable dog.
-Wearing my blue hat and looking like the beaux baton academy girls from Harry Potter
-Standing in the blue-out at the end of Act I after "Anything Goes" and listening to the audience applause
-Winking at the Captain (Tyson) during the wedding scene.
-Getting laughter from the audience when the Angels walk in as bridesmaids
-Feeling the natural high that comes after "Blow Gabriel Blow" when the audience erupts in applause.
-Telling the girls to "Break-a-leg and Bust-a-boob" every night in the doorway
-Wearing my black and red dress
-Getting to see my friends every day
-Being Elsie Saunders a.k.a. Chastity the Angel with all of the other amazing Angels!

-and much, much more... But, like every other show, it has to end sometime. Anything Goes was such a wonderful experience and I hope to have many more experiences like it while I'm here at Weber State. I'd like to give a big thanks to everyone in the cast and crew who helped make it such a wonderful performing experience. I'm glad to call you all my friends and to have shared such a great opportunity with all of you! Thanks for all of the fun laughs and memories!

The Could-Have-Been Love Story

Friday, February 4, 2011

a romantic reverie.

When I grow up and get married
I will one day live in a lovely home
That has a cute porch swing
In the front yard of our darling little house

Maybe we'll sit on our bench together
And watch our tiny toddlers play on the front lawn

Perhaps I'll settle down for a good read in the sunshine
While I wait for Him to come home from work

We might even take our breakfast to our swing.
We'll eat bacon and eggs while we enjoy the fresh morning air,
 Admiring the blue skies and the spring flowers

It just may be that we sit together on that swing
Evening after evening after evening-
Watching the sun set and the stars come out,
Listening to children laughing, dogs barking,
Crickets chirping, the breeze whispering through the trees...

I'll rest my head on his shoulder;
My legs dangling or curled up on the bench beside me.

He, playing with my hair or gently holding my hand...
We'll talk together for hours, our heels rocking us back and forth,

Swinging to the sweet rhythm of true love.