Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Will power.

I'm not a runner. I just don't see the joy or exhilration that comes from it. Feet pounding, step after step after step... working your way past house after house after house... or whatever your surroundings may be. When I'm running I feel like I can't take time to enjoy all the wonderful things around me- the sky, the green grass, the birds, the flowers. I'm too busy focusing on how much distance I have yet to cover.

They say it's bad on your knees. I believe it. Or maybe I just use that as an excuse so that I don't have to take up running.

I have great respect for people who get themselves to run regularly, and an even greater respect for people who actually enjoy running. It's great exercise. But I would rather dance, bike, swim, hike, or walk. I feel like when I'm doing one of those activities, I'm getting exercise AND I'm enjoying the time spent.

Yesterday evening I decided to go for a run. I warmed up and then started at a brisk walking pace. And then, shoving my earphones into my ears and turning up the volume on my ipod, I started running. I did better than I thought I would... and I was thinking maybe if I went running on my own time, by myself, in the neighborhood then perhaps I would enjoy it more than, say, running the mile in my middleschool P.E. class (not very fond memories there)

I do admit that when I finally slowed, returning to my own front yard (and doing all I could not to collapse on the grass below me) I felt a sense of accomplishment. And I love the feeling of worked muscles right after exercise. :)

But I still didn't enjoy the run. I'm going to keep trying, in hopes that as I get better at it I will start to enjoy it more. But it's going to take some major will power to get myself together and run every day.

We'll see how long this lasts. I may just revert back to my previous exercise routines... speed-walking and my weekly zumba classes :)

Thursday, May 26, 2011

Bethesda, Maryland.



... it looks pretty, doesn't it?



There's something so appealing to me about traveling.
 Something about being in a new place, surrounded by new people, experiencing new cultures...
I love it.

Mom's cousin, Elizabeth, sent an email today  informing me about a position to nanny her friend's three kids for a year in her home in Bethesda, Maryland.

Mom says no. College. I have a full-tuition scholarship. I can't go.
Then again, Mom doesn't even have to tell me. Education is important to me and I need to finish college.
 I know that.

But still... I would DIE to go live back East for a while. Live in the humid, green, beautiful state. Meet new people, make new friends, have new life experiences, go to a singles ward in Maryland, tend three adorable children every day, maybe be in a show on the side at a theatre somewhere over there.

All of that, for a whole year.

I wish.

Instead I'll be returning to the 'armpit of Utah' Ogden in the fall.
No I'm just kidding. Aside from how ugly Ogden is, I love attending Weber State. It just doesn't sound quite as awesome as
"I lived in Maryland for a year working as a nanny"

But that's okay. Cousin Chelsey is looking at taking up the job instead.
Lucky girl.

Hopefully one day I can do something adventurous like that. 
Pack up my bags, leave friends and family, and do something exciting and new. :) Something to think about one day in the future I suppose...

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Okay, this is just too cute.

So this guy made a movie trailer to propose to his girlfriend

She went to see a movie with her brother
And saw everything on the big screen.

How adorable...
I just love love ;)

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Life.

Thursday, May 5, 2011

I am now a pageant girl. ;)

Just over a year ago I probably would have been the girl that scoffed at the mention of any "pageant". I would have told anyone who listened that pageants were high-maintenence, superficial, overly-girly, and completely silly.

Well, a year ago my awesome friend Erin Davenport told me she was going to run for the Miss Riverton Scholarship Pageant.

... and then, somehow, and for some reason unbeknownst to myself, I told my mother I wanted to run too.

To be honest, I really cannot remember why I decided to run for the pageant a year ago. Maybe it was because of a friend, maybe it was because of the scholarship money offered, maybe it was a combination of these reasons or maybe it was something else entirely. I don't remember.

What I do remember is questioning myelf a thousand times throughout the course of the pageant last year about "why did I sign myself up for this?" I remember thinking that the movie Miss Congeniality is no exaggeration when it comes to pageants. I remember the stress of trying to find dresses, swimwear, shoes, and other various outfits. And I distinctly remember telling myself that I was never going to run for a pageant again.

This year I am running for Miss Riverton 2011
In the Miss Riverton Scholarshp Pageant.

I know, I know... major life contradiction. See, up until the night of the pageant last year I remember being continually stressed, frustrated, and irritated about the whole Miss Riverton process. This may have been cause from being the amateur in the pageant... last year I had no idea what I was doing the whole time. I was nearly clueless.

But last year at the pageant I had the wonderful privilege of being selected as the First Attendant for the Miss Riverton Royalty. And that night I told myself that if in a year I was in a place to run again, that I would. And between that night and now - what with all the experiences serving in the royalty - that decision was reaffirmed to me. I wanted to run for the pageant again.

I had to convince my parents. My parents always want to be supportive of me, but running for Miss Riverton isn't easy. The pageant is a hefty time and money commitment. I understood my parents' concerns but I was still determined to run again. Finally though, after many conversations with my parents and some deep decision seeking of my own, I obtained my parents' approval and officially decided I was going to run for Miss Riverton 2011.

And so the stress begins again.

But this time I know what's coming. And this time, I'm actually really excited to run. So this may sound like a corny pageant-girl's blog post... you have been warned..

Throughout the past year I have realized the importance of Miss Riverton and the Miss America Organization. Running last year helped me to gain a greater confidence in myself. It was one of the first times I had ever felt confident singing in front of a huge crowd of people by myself. It helped me to embrace my talents, knowledge, and potential. I also learned how to be a supportive and humble team player. The night of the pageant last year, I would have been happy no matter who was crowned Miss Riverton that evening. The pageant has also helped me learn to be more informed about politics and community service.

So why wouldn't I want to be a part of a program that is dedicated to helping girls feel confident and training them to reach their full potential? I also saw Miss Jessica Saunders throughout her reign the past year and I realized that I would love to be in her position; to learn more about the community and make a difference in people's lives. To educate myself and dedicate myself to a good cause. To be an example to everyone around me and learn new and exciting things from the people I would associate with through this year-long experience. What an awesome opportunity!

So, because of those reasons and many more... I am preparing myself for this year's pageant! Already I see new challenges and issues that I am going to have to face... and I can already tell I am going to learn some lessons from this experience.

I know that this is one of the things I am supposed to be doing this summer. I knew it ever since one of my initial plans for the summer didn't pull through. I knew my original plans didn't work out because this is what I am supposed to be involved in.

And this time I want to give it my all. I want to educate myself and prepare myself 1,000 times more than I did last year. I want to do my best so that I know whatever the outcome is I gave it my best shot and that's all that matters. It will happen how it is supposed to happen... and my job is to give it everything I got! :)

It'll be lots of fun. I've been filling out the contract papers, brainstorming a platform idea, and searching for a talent number. Our first meeting is this Saturday!

Anyway... each Miss Riverton Conestant has the opportunity to raise $100 dollars for the Children's Miracle Network. The CMN is an organization that raises money for children's hospitals in communities throughout the United States. This organization means a lot to me because Primary Childrens Hospital is a CMN hospital, and my brother Benjamin has undergone several surgeries and spent a lot of time at Primary Childrens. You can read more about his story here.

Last year I raised $100 dollars when I ran for the pageant, and this year I am raising $100 more and I would love any kind of help I can get! Even $5 donations would be such a great contribution! 100% of all donations goes to CMN. So here's my little plug ;) Help me out in my quest to run for Miss Riverton 2011 and even better, help this wonderful ogranization. Below is the link to donate and a video to show you how amazing CMN is! Thanks for all of your help! Anything is greatly appreciated!

And here's to running for Miss Riverton 2011! :)