Wednesday, February 29, 2012


All I want right now is to curl up on the couch with some ice for my knees, a cup of hot cocoa for my tummy, and this movie:

Fitting, right? But since I don't have a copy anywhere nearby, I suppose I'll just have the hot cocoa and the ice tonight.

I spent February twenty-ninth just like any other day. School, homework, meetings, and rehearsals. Not a bad day, by any means. Maybe in four years I'll actually have a Leap Year Party or something.

Did anyone do anything exciting on the extra day of the year?

P.S. Now that my stage makeup class is finished, my first class on Tuesdays and Thursdays doesn't start until 10:30am. Ten thirty. I'm sleeping in until nine thirty tomorrow morning. I can't even remember the last time I slept in that long. Seeing as I only got two-and-a-half hours of sleep last night, I cannot possibly tell you how excited I am to sleep in until nine thirty. This is Bliss. Pure dreamy, relaxing, uninterrupted Bliss. Tuesday and Thursday mornings are now my favorite. 

Nighty night! :)

Tuesday, February 28, 2012


I bought new glasses. Online. And I can't decide how I feel about them yet.
I heard about a sale, and so these seventy-eight dollar specs really only cost me nine bucks.
Pretty good deal right? So what do we think?

Monday, February 27, 2012

Ready or not, here I come!

Dear motivation, you cannot keep hiding from me forever. I will find you.
But maybe tomorrow morning. For now, an episode of Gilmore Girls before bed.

And I'll leave you with a song. Because I kind of love this.

I've been waiting all my life for this morning
Just to wake up next to you holding me
And your head is resting gently on my shoulder
Like you're whispering to me

I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
So glad I found you
I'm in love with you

When we're leaving dreams and rolling back the covers
All at once we're getting ready for the day
It's when you look at me in the mirror while you're shaving
Before I go on my way, you say

I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
You're the one I choose
'Cause I'm in love

Love is joy and love is pain
It's kissing in the rain
It's doing dishes when it's late
Isn't it, baby
It's the art of compromise
It's hellos and long goodbyes
It's the picture of our lives
Isn't it crazy

So I'll call you when I get to where I'm going
And I'll tell everyone we know you said hello
And without fail they'll ask me if I miss you
Of course I do, you know I do

'Cause I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
You're the one I choose

I'm in love
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I love you just the same as I did the day
I fell in love with you


1. I only have three more Thursday practices with the Folk Dance Team. I'm trying not to think about this one too much, because if I do I'm sure I'll start crying like a baby. Seriously though. Three Thursday practices and three Saturday practices, the spring show, then we're done. Where did this school year go??

2. Spring break is in two weeks. Need I say more?

3. Spending part of the weekend at my family's home was a treat. Dinner at Port of Subs was delicious, my brother did an outstanding job in the school play, and spending quality time with my family was just what I needed this weekend.

4. It was warm enough on Friday afternoon that I drove all the way from Ogden to Riverton with my sun roof open. Feeling the crisp air and the sunshine beaming through my open window made me one happy girl.

5.. I am constantly reminded of how incredible my best friends are. Brittany surprised me this weekend with a visit. She brought me squeaky cheese from her trip to St. George (the girl knows me too well!) and she wrote me the sweetest card. It's one of those that will be hanging up in my bedroom for a long time.

6. I miss my big, glorious, comfy double-sized bed that sits in my bedroom at my family's house. I have a feeling I'm going to miss it even more when I'm in Montana for the summer. That's an entire four months without my comfy bed. Twin-sized college mattresses just cannot compare.

7. If Stars Hollow were a real place I would move there. Stat.

I love watching Gilmore Girls on cold Sunday afternoons with the sound of the heater humming in the background and a cup of cocoa in my hands.

8. Tech rehearsals for Tartuffe begin this week. I'm excited to finally be involved with a show again.

9. Today I was asked to speak in sacrament for the first time in over two years. I haven't given a talk since I was in Young Womens. I'm looking forward to it though (but ask me again the morning I have to speak...) I finally get to give a big-kid talk in church!

10. I'm ready for Summer. I'm aching for starry nights, warm air, barbecues, crickets, Popsicles, green grass, long days, whirring air-conditioners, sunshine, and swimming. Oh yeah, and let's not forget West Yellowstone. That's a big part of it too.

Friday, February 24, 2012

Lucia Lacarra and Maria Kochetkova

Lucia Lacarra,
I want your feet. And your legs. And your turnout and your flexibility and your grace and...
Oh, forget it. :)

And Maria Kochetkova?
Wow. These dancers are just incredible.

Sunday, February 19, 2012

Tender Mercies.

Today I've had a couple of reminders about how blessed I am. Here I was, feeling sorry for myself and being a Debbie Downer about life when I have so much to be thankful for. It seems that whenever I start feeling blue, I have family just a phone call away waiting to offer me sound advice, friends right beside me waiting to lift me back up again, and a loving Heavenly Father waiting to listen to my thoughts and prayers. How do I take all of this for granted so often?

At about eight fifty this morning I walked outside to a world bright with sparkling snow. I tiptoed down the icy walk and across the street to my car when I realized that somebody had taken the time to scrape the snow and ice off of my car windows. I had to double check and make sure I had the right car. Yep. It really was my Holly Baby. Someone had been sweet enough to scrape my car windows early on a Sunday morning. I was saved from having to stand out in the cold and scrape my windows in my Sunday skirt and dress flats. More importantly, I was filled with such a lovely warmth and happiness. I haven't been able to stop smiling all day.

Then I discovered who did it. I realized that this person had church at one in the afternoon; so not only did they drive over to my house just to scrape the snow off of my car, but they may have sacrificed being able to sleep in and woke up early enough to clear away all of the snow. As if this isn't kind enough already, this person doesn't even live extremely close to my house.

As I thought about it and put all of the pieces together, I was filled with a deep gratitude. My sad thoughts were immediately replaced with a love for all of the blessings I have in my life. I also gained a greater respect for the person who helped me this morning.  I have never had anyone aside from my family do something like that for me. It was very thoughtful, and I was touched.

Heavenly Father sends me lovely little tender mercies like this all the time. As the day carried on, I noticed other smaller things that were also very wonderful. I found myself surrounded by sincere friends as I sat in all of my meetings. Then a missionary stood up and gave an extraordinary talk. The part when he spoke about service and small acts of kindness was especially profound to me, considering that I had been the recipient of such an act only hours earlier. I came home and talked to my best friend and continued to feel loved and uplifted. Then I called my mom... and the day only seems to get better.

"For I have learned that the greater part of our misery or unhappiness is determined not by our circumstance, but by our disposition"

"Do something for somebody, gladly, twill sweeten your every care; In sharing the sorrow of others Your own are less hard to bear. Do something for somebody always, whatever may be your creed. There's nothing on earth can help you so much as doing a kindly deed."

Thanks again to that person who so kindly sacrificed time out of their morning to so willingly do something kind and sincere. You know who you are :) And here is a thanks to everyone else who so generously puts up with me when I'm feeling blue, to my friends who always have my back.
I hope everyone is having the loveliest of Sundays.

When friends write.

This week has been a rough go for me. I can't put my finger on why this is, although I can definitely pick out some of the things on my mind that have attributed to my weird mood.

Let me make one thing clear: I have so much to be grateful for in my life. I'm surrounded by incredible friends and family, I have the privilege of receiving a great education and being in a phenomenal department, and this week I had a really incredible opportunity presented to me. (Seriously. I still can't get over the excitement for the summer that's ahead of me.)

But even with all of that, I've had this weird feeling tugging at me all week. I guess I'm in a funk. Anyway, I was sitting here trying to sort through all of my thoughts when I read dear Maggie's blog. I felt like she was taking thoughts out of my head and putting them into cohesive sentences. And she's a great writer, by the way. She writes openly about the way she really feels, which is something I think I skirt around sometimes.

But this is my corner of the universe after all, and I will write about what I feel like (thank you very much.) If you don't like it you don't have to read it. ;) So instead of trying to explain myself, I just thought I'd share what Maggie wrote with all of you.

"This week has had the weirdest energy. Its been difficult to enjoy pretty much any of it, because there is an energy sucking presence somewhere on campus and everyone seems to be effected by it. I'm hoping that after this long weekend I'll be able to re-apply myself, focus on school and directing and designing and being a motivated creative human again.

I've been trying to stop feeling like I'm not important. I've been trying to supress any resentment I have towards my friends and their cute new boys, because I am happy for them and the new developments in their relationship lives. I am. But I'm also so tired of feeling like nothing happens for me. Like I'm stuck in this vacuum of loneliness. Its a self-indulgent feeling, self-centered, and useless. I know these things. And yet... they're still there. Those thoughts of "If i was thinner, had clearer skin, had better hair, more exotic eyes, a bigger voice, a brighter glow..." Those thoughts that make me feel like it's never going to happen for me.  But I mask it, I cover it up with a smile and try to tap into the opposite side of my feelings and let my happiness show through."

I'm a confident person. I have my insecurities just like everyone else, but for the most part I recognize my self-worth and the blessings in my life and I'm happy to be me. I know Maggie does too. After all, why shouldn't she? She's fun and talented and gorgeous. :)
But sometimes we all let ourselves get into a funk. Trials, schoolwork, relationships, and stress wear on us. We allow our doubts or insecurities to creep into the back corners of our mind and simmer there. 

I just need to shake it off. And writing about it helps me to shake it off. Get it out of my system. I need to tap into happiness. I need to focus on the good things; which shouldn't be difficult, because there are so many of them in my life.

Thanks for your friendship and your thoughtful words Maggie. And as for the rest of you... I hope everyone is having a wonderful weekend. :) Here's to a new week and a happy Sunday! Let's focus on the good things together.

Much love, xoxo.

Thursday, February 16, 2012

Summer Stock.

For the past I-don't-know-how-many-weeks, I've been preparing for my auditions with The Playmill Theatre. I've never auditioned for summer stock before, but ever since Addison and Bre told me about the experience I knew I wanted to be a part of it. The Playmill Theatre is a theatre located in West Yellowstone that produces three musicals every summer. The company performs a whopping 13 shows a week during the season. 

That's two shows every weeknight and three shows every Saturday, folks.
Talk about a dream come true.

Seriously though, there is nothing I would rather do with my Summer than create art every day and touch audiences through musical storytellings. I know I know, cheesy, but just thinking about it now makes me all smiley-and-such. :)

I knew that having the opportunity with The Playmill would be a dream summer for me. So last weekend I packed my bags and made the three-hour drive to Rexburg, Idaho for my audition. Jack Shapiro joined me and we made a mini road trip of it.

We had the most wonderful time in Rexburg. We spent the weekend at the home of one of Jack's old mission companions. Steffan and his wife Emily were so hospitable and cheerful. The Lassen's countenances were infectious, and I loved staying with them and getting to know them.

We arrived in Rexburg late Friday night. We stayed up even later talking to Emily and Steffan over a heaping bowl of popcorn. The next morning we enjoyed each other's company as we got ready for the big day. Jack and I ventured onto campus for our auditions. We arrived extremely early, so we found a practice room and warmed up our voices for our audition. We both had successful auditions, and we both were asked to attend callbacks!

Before callbacks we met up with our fellow auditioners Bre, Addison, Christian Johnston, and Rachel Shull for lunch at The College Avenue Deli. Rexburg is adorable, by the way. I was kind of obsessed with the tiny streets and the old buildings. It was the cutest little college town. I may have been a teeny bit jealous of all the students who attend school there.

Anyway I digress. My old neighborhood friend Ashley Berg (student at BYU-I) also joined us for lunch, and it was such a delight to be able to visit with everyone! I enjoyed a delicious BLT on sourdough bread and treated myself to fried cheesecake for dessert. It was divine.

Callbacks were... well, how callbacks always are. Nerve-wracking and frustrating and exciting and disheartening and fun all rolled into one giant enchilada. I can tell you one thing... I have never felt so incompetent during a dance audition in my entire life. The dance steps weren't too difficult, but I was having the toughest time with the sequencing. It's a miracle I made it through. I don't know what my deal was that day... but I've never felt so stumped by a dance audition before.

The vocal callbacks were scary. I always get nervous for vocal callbacks though. It's something I'm working on. Finally, they ended my callback with an interview. I felt confident about that part. All of the people involved with The Playmill seemed very nice. Thank The Heavens for ending on a good note! :)

After callbacks Jack and I treated ourselves to frozen yogurt. (He rocked his audition by the way. What a stud.) Mint chocolate chip for me and sguar-free praline for Jack. It was a treat we both felt was well-deserved. Huzzah for a successful day of auditions!

After a some sight-seeing from the car and a short visit to the temple grounds, we returned to the Lassen's home and enjoyed chatting with Emily and laughing over silly youtube videos. Jack and I ended our trip with an outing to Wingers with Emily and Steffan. Once again I thoroughly enjoyed their company. Then Jack and I made the drive back to Ogden, sharing great music and singing all the way home.

Then it was time to wait. I knew that whatever was supposed to happen would happen, but I was still anxious to know the results. Tuesday, while at a Valentines Day Party, I recieved a phone call and was offered a spot in this year's company at The Playmill! Happy Valentines Day to me :) :)

Bre, Addison, and Jack made the company too. I couldn't be more thrilled. Ten men and eight women made the company. I leave for Montana on May first. Just take a look at our season:

Yep. I'm beyond ecstatic. And get this- I'm getting paid to do what I love. I'm one of the luckiest girls on the planet, I think. I'm going to be involved in three fantastic shows this summer, I'm going to have some exciting opportunities for learning and growth, and I get to share this incredible experience with some really awesome people. I can't wait to meet my Playmill family and begin my dream summer.

Sheesh. I just love theatre.

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Valentines Day.

Well, another relationship-less February 14th has come and gone. But don't worry... this isn't going to be one of those bitter posts about living a single life during the romantic holiday.

No, I love Valentines Day. I wore my lacy red shirt and my red pumps in festivity. I made a playlist on my ipod that's all about love songs and listened to it allll dayy loonng.
Yes. I am one of those people.

I love love.

That's practically my tag line. I say it all the time.

Before I talk about February 14th I just have to say... I finally got to see The Vow. (It's pertinent to the topic, right? I mean... it's definitely a chick flick. Love, Valentines, Chick-flicks. It all goes hand in hand.) I've been waiting for that movie to come out for months now. I saw it with Mom on Monday. I absolutely loved it. It's gotten some mixed reviews from the people I know who have seen it... but I am such a hopeless romantic. Ah.

Anyway, I digress.
Today: classes were a breeze, the day was nice. We had a makeup application day today in Stage Makeup, and I decided to go with the Valentines Theme on my partner. I don't exactly know where I was going with it... but it was "fantasy day" and so there were no limits. We had fun.

The rest of my day was fairly normal, aside from the love songs streaming through my headphones all day long and the warm happy feeling I had as I saw love blooming all around me. Oh yeah... and Daddy sent me a Valentines Day text. Usually he gets his girls a little something on Valentines Day. Since I'm away at school, this year he text me and put money in my account so I could treat myself to Einstein's tomorrow morning. Best. Valentine. Ever.

Later this evening my roommate Callie hosted an "I Hate Valentines Day" party with a couple of girls from the ward. I stayed for a while and enjoyed some delicious homemade treats. I had a good time chatting with the girls.

After visiting with Callie and her friends, I went to Chad Illum's house for another Valentines shin-dig. We had an outstanding time playing rock band, decorating sugar cookies, and comparing relationship-stories-gone-wrong from the past.

It was a lovely Valentines Day. I also received some very exciting news today, but that's a subject worthy of it's own post. Maybe for later. As of right now it's time for pajamas and this show, which is kind of a perfect ending to the holiday.

Infinite x's and o's

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

The Rules of Courtly Love.

The Art of Courtly Love, combined with the Code of Chivalry, were a series of rules practiced by the members of court back in the middle ages. The romance, rules, and art of courtly love allowed knights and ladies to appropriately show admiration and love to one another. I thought it was appropriate to share for the holiday.

I'm a history nerd. And a hopeless romantic. Get over it. 
It's a shame; the bulk of society doesn't speak of love in this way anymore. 
Now it's just about outward image, lust, seduction, one night stands, and whathaveyou.
But this... this is so poetic. I just love it.
These aren't all of the rules, only the ones I find to be most valuable.

*Love cannot exist in the individual who cannot be jealous.
*No one should be deprived of love without the very best of reasons.
*Love is always a stranger in the home of avarice.
*The easy attainment of love makes it of little value, difficulty of attainment makes it prized.
*Every lover regularly turns pale in the presence of his beloved.
*When a love suddenly catches sight of his beloved, the heart palpitates.
*He whom the thought of love vexes eats and sleeps very little.
*Every act of a lover ends in the thought of his beloved.
*A true lover considers nothing good except that which he thinks will please his beloved.
*A man who is vexed by too much passion usually does not love.
*It is well known that love is always increasing or decreasing.
*That which a lover takes against the will of his beloved has no relish.
*Love can deny nothing to love.
It's just so romantic, right?
I want my own knight in shining armor. Stat.
(Or maybe a date for Valentines Day would suffice.)

P.S. Oh yeah...I've been to that place. And the picture doesn't even do it justice. Be jealous.

Thursday, February 9, 2012


Basically I have some pretty amazing friends. And I've decided I don't give them enough credit for what they do. So I've decided to do a monthly "shout out" post. (Well, kind of monthly-ish. I might post a shout out more frequently than a month, or maybe less frequently. But I am going to start posting them.) Each time I'll post about two or three people. We'll see how it goes.

Anyway, here's the first shout out to three of my phenomenal friends! 
And P.S. These shout outs are in no order of importance. 
I pretty much just love all of these people a whole lot.

Bre and Addison Welch.

I met Addison when we were in a production of The Pirates of Penzance together at Hale Center Theatre, summer of 2010. I don't exactly remember how we became friends, but I faintly recall telling Addison one day that he should play the role of Bert in Mary Poppins. Somewhere between that day and the end of our show he became "The Big Brother I Never Had."

I didn't officially meet Bre until I started school at Weber State, but I remember Addison showing me a picture of her and telling me all about her. I also remember seeing her in The Light in the Piazza at WSU earlier that year in the spring. I always thought Bre was SO talented and beautiful! I knew that if she was anything like Addison, that I would definitely want to meet her! (And I was right! I am so glad I have gotten to know this girl!)

During my freshman year of college I was in Anything Goes with Addison and Bre, and I continued to get to know them while attending school at WSU. This year I've gotten to know both of them even better, and I wanted to give them a shout-out and let them know how thankful I am for their friendship!

Bre and Addison are two of my biggest role models on the entire planet. Dead serious. Not only are they both extremely talented; they are both genuine, kind, and loving individuals. After both having successful careers at WSU, I haven't heard ANYONE in the department utter one negative word about Addison or Bre. This is an extremely difficult feat in the ever-competitive world of musical theatre. Everyone I talk to speaks highly of Addison and Bre, and with good reason. They are two of the most sincere people you will ever meet.

Not only do I love them for their sincerity and kindness, but I love them for the standards they upkeep. Watching them perform and be successful in the theatre department while being true to themselves makes me realize that it's possible to follow my own dreams while I'm here. Their individuality and artistic abilities inspire me so much!

Bre and Addison have been such an incredible example to me. Any words I write just don't do it justice. I truly value their encouragement, advice, and friendship; and I'm going to miss them both when they graduate this year. They have done so much for me and I love them both a lot. A BIG thanks to you both!!

Sam Howe.

Sam Howe is one of my fellow teammates on the folk dance team. He was one of the first people I bonded with. One evening after we both had gone through a particularly long day, we made a spontaneous trip to Wendys for some shakes and a good chat. Since then, Sam has been one of the people I feel most comfortable talking to.

This guy is super fun to be around. He is always up for a good time, whether it be a movie night, game night, or ice-cream outing. Sam is also one of THE most thoughtful people I have ever known. He is always going out of his way to help the people he loves. I've seen him giving gifts and performing acts of service for other people many times. I admire Sam so much for his thoughtfulness towards others. Sam is also very trustworthy. I know that he can be a safe place for me to talk about anything. I also trust him with his opinion and his advice. He is an amazing friend, and I'm privileged to know him! I'm thankful for all of the awesome times we have, and I look forward to seeing him at practices every week! Thanks for being such an amazing friend Sam!

Monday, February 6, 2012

random laughs.

A friend showed this to me yesterday, and today it's all over Facebook. I'm constantly calling Ogden "The armpit of Utah" and so I just couldn't resist sharing this.

Also, I deem this commercial the best of Super Bowl 2012. They were really lacking this year, but this is one of the few that got me laughing.

I know, this is one of those seemingly pointless posts. But I felt like it. That is all.

Friday, February 3, 2012

It's a girl thing.

Remember that hot bath and ice cream thing I was talking about? Yeah... well tomorrow after my weekly Hip Hop class my day is wide open. Do you know how often this happens? Seldom to never, I tell you. So I'm probably not going to be doing much of anything productive. I'm just going to focus on ME. 

Call me selfish, but a hot bath, Gilmore Girls, a good book, ice cream, a pedicure, and comfy pajamas are all in the agenda.

I will not be doing any homework, I will not be driving anywhere, I will not be opening my planner to schedule any meetings or rehearsals, and I will not be answering any phone calls. Leave a message at the tone. It will be a nice reward after such a long week, and a nice prep for the even longer week ahead. It's going to be a glorious weekend.

P.S. I also have a date tomorrow night.
Yep. Glorious weekend.

Wednesday, February 1, 2012


The video is a remake of the original. I watched both, and I really liked this one.
This is just really sweet.<3

Oh yeah.... and I just reeealllly want to see this one.